Mystery of the Matrix

Moving forward, the upcoming topics will begin to address the reader at large to not only spectate, but will begin to challenge you to identify and participate in working out your own situation.  The woman in this story is done speaking for now.  Her story has been told.  Therefore only one perspective will be addressed from this point on, to sincerely navigate those who desire it into a better way.  Jesus Christ is the Way.  In my opinion, He is the only right way to go, though there may be many ways to follow after.

   ~Welcome, to the twelve-step program.  Symbolically speaking~

You have taken a huge leap toward the first step if you have been persuaded to acknowledge the idea of a new birth experience in Christ as the necessary step.  Oh, it’s okay if you are not sure exactly how to proceed further.    Right here, right now, is where you begin to rewrite the script.  Reboot!  Rebirth! 

Mysterious sounding, isn’t it?  But mostly, a simple prayer is involved and a “leaven” amount of faith.  And actually, whether you know it or not, a prayer is already at hand within the archives of your heart.  This, along with a small measure of faith, jumpstarts your journey back to God.

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There is a story in the Bible about a man unidentified by his given name (called himself Legion). As it is told, Jesus saw fit to go and see about him one day.  All that this man had left in him, after being tormented and driven by devils, was a cry of the heart and hope that someone would hear what he was really trying to say thru his torrential screams, and thru his public display.  In the Book of Mark, Chapter five, you’ll find his story.  As you read it, you get the sense that others were repelled by him; yet Jesus was compelled to come to him, to answer the cry.  Jesus could not ignore the faith of that man.  For that man was not crying out to be a public nuisance, disturbing the peace; but he was crying out to God to come save him.  Neither was he cutting himself just for insane purposes.  He did it to stay alive.  And for as long as he did cut himself, and all the rest, he knew he was yet alive able to hold on to his hope.  Hope is the one thing the man had left.  This demoniac (maniac) man held on to all that he owned, which was a “mustard seed” faith, believing that he might be saved in time.  Before what happened to the swine could inevitably happen to him.   

Jesus understood that this man wanted to be in his right mind.  To be a sound member of society, not an outcast.  Nor a byword, the one everyone else in town gossips about.

I think that homosexuals face this same plight.  No one, but God, understands a troubled soul’s predicament.  God understands all languages and peoples; all cries of the heart.   

On the flip side, the swine in the story, that immediately ran off into the waters and drowned, could not have possessed that same will of this man to live.  Or display any measure of faith, to hold onto any hope until things changed for the better, because they were animals without any ability to cope.  No animal knows how to recover from this type of trauma or any trauma of substance, for that matter (i.e., mad cow disease, mange, rabies, swine flu, foot-mouth disease).  In such cases, they are fit to be put down, mercifully so, in order to avoid more suffering.  A ‘mercy killing’ is about all that can be done for them.

From this tale we get to see how man is much more resilient and adapts to suffering longer than other created beings. A few give up hope, most do not.

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A simple prayer of the heart may express itself in the form of an insane cry, hushed groans, shed tears or spoken in a few words.  He even bottles up every one of our tears.  Salvation is given to whoever willingly receives it.  Salvation means to set free, to give without restraints.  There’s no catch! No trappings.  Remember ever seeing the Take One, Please placards—this implies that something is free if you’d like to have it.  There exists many prayer templates that you can reference to attain (release) your free gift.  Here is one from II Samuel 24:10,

“Lord, I have sinned greatly in what I have done; 

But now, I pray, O Lord,

Take away the iniquity of Your servant; 

For I have done very foolishly.”

I receive Your forgiveness

And thank You for forgiving me for all of my sins.  Amen. [Adlib]

In Job 33:27, 28 it says, “…‘I have sinned, and perverted what was right, and it did not profit me.’  He will redeem his soul from going down to the Pit, and his life shall see the light.”  See, you can say it too, 

Lord, I have sinned

And perverted that which was right,

And it did not profit me;

Please deliver my soul

And help me to see the light of your love

Through Christ, Your only Son. 

I thank You, Father God, Amen. [Adlib]

The New Testament prayers are even more precise if you believe the words you repeat in your heart.  For instance, by quoting from John 3:16-18, pray,

[I believe]

“’For God so loved the world

That He gave His only begotten Son,

That whoever believes in Him

Should not perish

But have everlasting life. 

For God did not send His Son into the world

To condemn the world,

But that the world through Him

Might be saved.’” 

[I confess]

“’He who believes in Him is not condemned…’”

Thank You, Father, God.  In Jesus’ Name, Amen. [Adlib]

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It is good news to know that Jesus is the Door that we must walk through.  He has access that only a Son can have.  As any parent can attest to, there have been those times when their own children invited peers home who were a little shady, often allowing entrance to them based on their child’s vouchsafe for those standing at the front door.  Knocking, waiting to get in.  Admit it, many parents have been tempted to hesitate (think twice) more than a few times, or resisting the urge to give a thorough pat down after they are ready to leave the premises. 

Well, Jesus does the same for us. We gain access into the Kingdom through Him.  And God, as Father, grants all those who come in Jesus’ name free admission.  Our Father is saying, in part, Welcome to the Family!  As a part of the Family of God you are welcome to partake of all the riches found in Christ Jesus.  The good, and not so good, are welcome.  Jesus has left His keys, “Keys of the Kingdom,” for us.  But He is the Door.  It is as simple as that. 

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Last of all, you can pray words from your own heart, such as: 

Dear God,

I believe that You have always loved me. 

And I thank you for sharing Your Son with us,

In the way that You did;

For the purpose of saving us. 

He took my place and was sentenced to death

So that I would not have to die for what I do,

For what I have done already, and will do. 

I am who I am 

And I come as I am

Because You invited all to “Come as you are.” 

I believe in Jesus Christ, that He is Your only Son. 

I believe that I am saved

Because of what He unselfishly did for me. 

Thank You, Father, for forgiving me even before I asked.

Let Your perfect will be done,

Amen.

If you prayed any of the prayers cited (or your own prayer) and believe it in your heart, then something truly special is taking place.  And I mean NOW!

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It has been quoted that hindsight is 20/20.   As we begin to rethink the matrix of the world that we live in, we will come to understand just how true that statement is.  Upcoming is an insightful depiction that  helps explain what is invisibly happening inside each of you who prayed these prayers to God: 

 Throughout history, we have tried to recreate the paradigm of the paradise we lost.  But it will never be that way again as long as Satan is here and has high-jacked our earth.  The affairs our enemy connives in the world are vicious; as this hypnotic world follows along, feeding off its’ own lusts, savagely striving for what is temporal, wasteful, and rotting treasures here on earth. 

We are all guilty of having followed on blindly with the rest of the world.  As individual creatures of creation, we have the chance to no longer be blind mice chasing after any of these temporary treasures.  The Bible talks about this very thing in James 4:1-3, “Where do wars and fights come from among you?  Do they not come from your desires for pleasure that war in your members?  You lust and do not have.  You murder and covet and cannot obtain.  You fight and war.  Yet you do not have because you do not ask.  You ask and do not receive, because you ask amiss, that you may spend it on your pleasures.” 

Yes.  The life we were born into resembles a warzone (once known as a paradise).  The sincerity that is truth lay as its remains, buried deep inside your core.  It has to be awakened.   It is asleep on the inside, entangled in a web of lies.  This is the essence to the reference “dead in sins.”  That real, authentic person that you are, is buried in a seed-form, eager for life.  Through much study and understanding, it does become easier to receive our sight and to see our need of hope.  And the key is in allowing full exposure to the light of truth—the beginning of freedom we long for. 

This will be the hardest thing that you will ever have to do—to understand your freedom and stand firmly in your liberty.  Freedom is worth fighting for, worth maintaining, even as this world is constant with its lures, dangled in front of your eyes, to keep you from seeking any depth of wisdom into the real person you are meant to be.  

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Is not the body a type of womb, temporarily housing our spirit body?  I think so.  Our spirit (hologram) is kept either in a state of death (inactivity) or in a state of life.  Remember, our spirit lost the ability to generate life in the Eden.  As it stands, we can only generate death in us. 

So where does life come from?  We are the soil God has chosen to use, having been formed into man and woman, and are made for planting.  Planting?  Planting what?  His Seed.  Most people miss this, that not only literal seed has been implanted in man but spiritual also.  The Lord God is the Husband (husbandry) and He holds the Seed.  Mankind is the Wife, spiritually.  That explains why the Bible says there is no more “male or female,” not in the Body of Christ. 

Just as the body proves to be the perfect embryonic vessel in which to experience birth naturally, it makes perfect sense that the same applies spiritually.  This concept ideally makes a wonderful groundwork to recreate a new life or a new beginning.  It is where everything is made good once again. As the very Seed of His Spirit becomes newly planted in our spirits, opportunity for “good and evil” fruit to sprout becomes impossible! 

Our spirit (seed) along with God’s Spirit (Seed) planted into the very heart of man is what germinates spiritual life in us.  This constitutes only the conception of life, or the beginning.  There will be a birth later, as in the natural.  This mystery is defined as rebirth, or born again.  This means we embody a new creature (creation) now in this life!  It will look like you and be in character like the living God. 

God does this impossible thing!  He makes all things new!  That is why it is a must that the seed of life newly planted in us be well-watered with the Word of Truth—In due time a ‘born again’ you will arrive.  Born of the Holy Spirit. 

Mary (Mother of Jesus) bore the Prototype (Jesus the Christ).  If this is accurate, then, we who receive Christ have become impregnated, also, with His life bearing qualities. 

 ~Okay, what is this really about?~

God is so mysterious in the way He operates.  He lets us see a little bit, enough to be in awe.  He has declared that we are “fearfully and wonderfully made.”  But aren’t we made of dust from the earth?  What is so special?  What is so wonderful?  Why would He say this?   What is it about us that God sees?  Oh!  He sees Himself!  His own image! 

The Bible says that His spirit dwells in man; and yet, unbelief will cause us to remain without Life (a patch of dry earth) if we do not receive life through Christ.

~My, oh my, are you all getting this?~ 

People, we do not know Who we’re dealing with!  A great God and an awesome!  We have no idea of how absolutely wonderful all of this is.  There is much hope and great potential in store for us.  To unfold the layers to the secrets of life is a privilege, if we can believe.  Howbeit, spiritual eyes will be needed to see for ourselves where the true treasure lies.  And it certainly does not lie here on this earth amongst the dead.

Gracefully, we have been offered the grand opportunity to have everything that we lost in that paradise to be replanted and cultivated in the garden of our hearts.  This is precisely that special place where we can  become fruitful again, bearing spiritual fruit in a spiritual garden.  And all good things will be sealed there, in our heart, where Satan cannot sabotage or make ruin.  Here, we are safe until the rebirth actually happens (hence the word, saved).

 The paradise, the Eden, and the treasure that will reemerge remain hidden and safeguarded through Christ alone.  The first Adam failed at this task.  That is why it is said that we are “saved through Christ.” It is a literal regard as well as a spiritual. 

This echelon of reality requires simplicity of faith.  Therefore, it is harder to believe.  It sounds of foolishness. Making it even harder to receive.

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Further depth may make it easier for skeptics to relate to this life-altering truth.  Think about nature.  Things in nature probably make for a better comparison of the spiritual.  For starters, how do we come into this physical world?  As newborns?  Yes, it is a fact. We are born helpless.  We need protection.  We cannot walk.  We communicate thru babble and crying.  Yet, as we sleep, we are continuously developing and growing (literally).  We begin to crawl, explore, and test boundaries.  We interact more with environment as we develop skills.  We experience various human tasks from infancy thru adulthood that promote maturity, self-esteem, and other vital markers.  This is the way it is for all humans.  In stages. 

There, indeed, should always be healthy forms of growth and maturity.  Naturally, that is the way it is.  But what about spiritually speaking?  What if your spirit remained dead because of sin?  Dead to true living.  Unborn.

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If at this point of acceptance, as applies to some of you, do you agree that we are all spiritual infants in the beginning?  Is it possible for a forty-nine year old woman, in the natural, to embark on a spiritual walk as a forty-nine year old ‘infant’ concerning all things spiritual?  I mean to say, in awakening to knowledge and understanding about ourselves and the God who created us.

This inference suggests that it is more than possible.  Passions, lusts, drives, and habits, categorically, have a 49:1 ratio over a spiritual infant (newly formed person of faith).   Persuasively, a forty-plus year advantage.   Any ‘babe in Christ’ versus the elder version of yourself (that old dog who refuses to learn) will always bully, rule, dominate, and subject the ‘younger’ by rights of being the eldest.

 Breaking from tradition, God has been known to show favor to the younger on a number of occasions throughout the Holy Bible.  Now it becomes more clearer to us as to why this is. 

Naturally, since ‘flesh’ has been doing the heavy lifting for all of this time, hauling the weight of a dead  spirit, our born again spirit does likewise by carting the dead weight of our fruitless flesh along with its desires, in turn.  It’s safe to say that our flesh epitomizes that old rugged cross that we must carry to Calvary (even to death itself) in order that one day we may redeem it for a new glorified body.  Jesus Christ personally advises us to “carry” our cross and to “follow” Him.  The embryonic spirit referred to earlier is being held in waiting,  to be born later—mature in mind, strong in spiritual stature.  No longer a child.  No longer whiny.  No longer selfish. It is an invisible miracle developing in the secrecy of the womb, just like in natural birth!  Growth is happening!  The belly is proof!  The Bible tells us that out of our belly will flow rivers of living water (life). 

So you see, it is in these delicate beginnings of the born again experience that you are slowly able to see the world as it really is, especially now that your life source is from the womb of Truth. 

The right eyes allow you to really see that each and every subtle Lie told is wholly a part of the Matrix that we live in. All subsequent born again persons will be touched, as well, by the real world of truth, and welcomed from death into life.

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Everything in this world is the complete opposite in the real world of truth.  There is a lot of irony.  You almost have to be a borderline ‘schizoid’ in order to pull off believing in Truth.

The Truth is in a realm that will need to play itself out in the mind.  This is the only place to retain the real Truth.  We must enmesh ourselves in it.  John 17:17, “Sanctify them by Your truth.  Your word is truth.” This scripture implies that a washing and cleansing regiment will be necessary, such as when a newborn baby is born.  In this case, reborn.  

Appearing to be double-minded, though,  makes an advantageous journey more difficult. To free a mind is difficult enough.  The mind does not want to let go or be retrained. The mind doesn’t want to learn any new ways.  In a domain where old ways are set, it would rather be left alone or make change something easy to do.  Instituting new programs, new customs is too much, too complex for the effort it takes for the mind to obtain. 

~Push the reset button, please~ 

 If you’re going to take a serious stand, you must hold fast and not waiver back and forth between doctrines.  Be mindful of the fact that the real person, made in God’s image, is planted deep inside of the ‘rabbit hole.’  This is the same place where time becomes eternal.  Life becomes eternal (eternal life).  Try to remember that this gift is a real blessing, to have been invited, called to attend, and chosen to come up higher in your life.  These are not impossible things.  They are very possible.  You must have faith.  Illogical faith. 

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The reason why fantasy, lies, and deception operate so effectively when trying to send one back into the matrix, at the hand of Satan, is because it provides  comfort, much like a womb.  I know, right.  How many examples can be made about wombs, and children, and birth?  Isn’t it interesting that the Bible is filled with fancy in this vein, about conception, family, seed and things?  This world mimics the womb.  The world is familiar.  It’s what we know.  It is hard to change how things are done.  Tragically, to be undead is as grievous as being unborn. 

A perfect example.  Medical doctors discovered this woman who was pregnant for about 40 years!  Actually, the fetus develops, yet somewhere along the way, dies.  The baby does not abort or miscarry and there is no stillborn birth.  The organs of the unborn child simply feed off of the mother for all of those years!  (Look this story up FYI)  Without knowing better, whenever this world is a place of comfort to anyone, deception reigns.  It does feel safe, though, as long as you remain asleep.  Your enemy does not want you to ever open up your eyes to discover that you have been living in a zombie state. 

Whew! There you have it—there is unborn and there is [re]born.  You can choose to remain unborn or choose to be reborn in spirit.

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 Moving right along on to another important part of this program that needs to be taken into consideration.  Confession.  Confessing is important, now that you recognize how God is not angry or coming with ‘the grapes of wrath’ against all homosexuals as if in the Great Judgment.  You can inhale.  You should equally be ready to exhale (without fear) an admission that attests to the truth of the matter.  And the truth of the matter is that anyone who has made personal, sexual choices contrary to God’s intended purposes (for a man or for a woman) are indeed a commission of freelance sins.  Regardless as to what drives these urges, or why, if allowed to live and breathe through you with your permission, with your consent, it becomes needful to talk about it with your Father.  Discuss with Him, how these activities have become a resort of enslavement to you. 

 All those who have often yielded to their own, select lusts, subtly instigated by Satan, have become conduits used for his own, carnal expression.  No one should have to accept this, acquiesce or try to adapt it any longer.  Know that it is in proper order to abate homosexuality as a whole, while not rejecting one’s self.  Be wary that there is a huge difference between the acknowledgement of adverse sexual feelings and participation in the experience.

That being said, your sexuality does not define the entirety of you, in the eyes of God.  And you are not being asked to reject your own sensual self either, since it is a given.  However, the twisted ideals of the perversion itself, as well as the mandate of the expression, are a superficial, alternative love that you have every right to inspect. 

Please, do not look for ways to justify this through science.  Further understand that it may not immediately be noticeable to the natural eye, but a change of mind can happen.  Even if sexual desire, followed-up by action, has not desisted, a renewal of thinking can, and does, begin to take place.  Be patient.  Take baby steps.

This cocooning within the heart and mind eventually does allow a window in which to see things as God originally intended and the opportunity for a person to align a little faith to see oneself as a son or daughter more readily.  This narrative does not attempt to suggest that a homosexual tendency all of a sudden becomes heterosexual.  The implication is deeper than that, much deeper. Once you become acutely aware that the controversy was never about the physical expression of sex, but has always been about the mind becoming singular (and therefore sound). 

If the mind contrarily persists in doing what it wants with his person (body), having been allowed to operate under a double set of rules or dual natures for any length of time, your mind involuntary facilitates  the chaos and confusion that plays out in your physical sexual behaviors, at will.  Catering to the needs of your sensual flesh may be lawful; though it may not necessarily be expedient any longer.  Yes, you may feel you have the right to do what is right for you, as a human being.  To do what feels right.  No one is challenging that.  Read this for yourself in I Corinthians 10:23, “All things are lawful for me, but not all things are helpful; all things are lawful for me, but not all things edify.”  Your expression remains yours to choose.  However, now that you have elevated your body over to a higher purpose in God, when you selected Him as Lord, it will take time for things to line up agreeably.  Again, be patient—God is. 

It will never become a matter of how many times you didn’t do it or did.  What matters is He does not hold your sin against you.   He promises that if you confess when you sin, every time you commit it, He would forgive.  Faithfully.  If need be, seven times seventy in a day, God will forgive you.  Do the math!  That’s seven times seventy, in an entire day [7 x 70 = 490].  The next day resets back to zero.  Hallelujah!

We can approach a forgiving God about the behaviors that bind us without dread, or questioning if we irreversibly crossed the line (gone to far in sin).  God is up at the crack of dawn every single day looking for people to show mercy to.  It’s in His nature! His love for us has Him always on the edge of His Seat, brimming with eagerness to do something nice. 

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A final point I’d like to make about sin is found in the Book of Luke, chapter five:  It describes a man full of leprosy who, upon seeing Jesus, fell on his face, and besought Him, saying, “’Lord, if You are willing, You can make me clean.’”  And the Lord said, “I will.”  And immediately the leprosy departed from him. 

As you might tell, the physical condition of an individual can appear to be more obvious when healing takes place.  But, when leprosy in the depths of a soul is apparent, blessed is the man who believes in the healing (and the Healer) though he cannot see what the Lord is doing on the inside of him or her—Spiritual leprosy is actually being cleansed immediately as well.  Carnal desires, constantly calling for participation in sinful activity, will have to eventually follow suit ‘kicking and screaming,’ as it may.  We do need faith. Genuine amounts of unyielding faith catapult us into gaining more faith.  Faith adds to faith.

 For it is this that ushers in the light of truth in order for all of us to foretaste a better use of our liberties.  A better use of our time.   We need determination to stick to the firm choices we have made.   Holding fast to what we now believe to be true conversion.  

 Feeling stuck is not the aim. Marrying these two entities-–human desire and filling spiritual void—is not the aim.  They could never be married really.  They are too incompatible, unequally yoked together, forever opposing one another.  You do not have to travail or agonize (no need to over think this too much).  Only trust Him!  You are no longer doing the fighting by yourself.

I realize some of you out there may think hopeless thoughts concerning  life choices you have made, so far.  But, there is hope.